Many things start to unfold as I hold the map by the ends.

Many things that I did not know about before this.

Many things that I had fervently wished it was all in my imagination.

Many things that I, as a 14 year old girl, could never understand.

Why was things so complicated? Why was everything falling apart one by one, like broken pieces of a jigsaw puzzle?

As I looked at the map, the map which lead to my heart, I begin to understand myself better, as I lead the way for new and better things that were bound to happen in the future. Life may be full of downs, but if you look at the fine creases that surfaced when the map unfolded, you would have seen the experience, the happiness, the joy which took place between all of those downs. Maybe, just maybe, everything might be back to normal as I begin to realise that life is not as difficult as I had expected to be.

As I write this entry, I finally realise that the world is something I will never understand. I will never understand the violence, the quarrels, the bloodshed, or the tempers. But what my heart will always understand is the kindness, the laughter, the smiles, the hugs, the kisses. Suddenly, my heart opens up to people, to close family, to close friends and I start to wonder - what did I do to earn all of these wonderful things that has happened so far? What did I do in my past life to have such great family, cousins, friends?

That, I'm afraid I'll never know.

As I've been to places, from China to Malaysia, I realised the warmth of a family. At the same time, I realised to coldness between them, the animosity which was bound to happen, one way or another.

In China, upon visiting my relatives, I didn't even know what were their names. How they looked like, how they behaved. But as I got to know them better, as we got closer and closer, I felt the warmth of a family I've never felt before. [Okay, maybe my parents and brother, but this is a first for relatives. Serious!] I'm proud to say we still keep in touch and send emails and smses to each other even though we have a [sort of] language barrier [they don't understand much english, so I speak to them in chinese] and skype each other when we're online! This is also the first time I've actually called a relative 大哥 and 二哥！:)

I love you guys <3 And I'm really looking forward to seeing you guys in Singapore next June! ^^ As promised, I will take you guys to the Zoo :D So, watch out! xo

In Malaysia, on the other hand, they made me feel how a family can fight and quarrel over the tiniest things, no matter how tight they are. Everytime I get reminded at how brothers and sisters fight over nothing, I find myself... at a loss for words. I really hope this doesn't happen to my brother and I as we're really close, and I don't want to be estranged with him because of some crazily stupid reason. I really don't.

But, as I looked closer, I could also see how everyone was having fun, how everyone just enjoyed each other's company as we bonded over dinner or lunch. Teasing, playing pranks, and making fun of each other was like a daily routine. As we playfully punched, kicked and 'strangled' each other, I could feel that familiar warmth again. Exactly the same warmth when I was in China. :)

So, I encourage everybody to take that first step into knowing your relatives and remember that everyone has a playful side! It's just that sometimes it takes longer than usual to find it :) Because once you know them, and feel that warmth, you'll realise...everything you've done, even just simple actions like putting your hand on his shoulder, or going up to him to say hello, was worthwhile. Because of those small, little actions, you've made another friend to laugh with you, to lend you a shoulder when you're crying, to make you smile and forget all those things which troubled you initially. To just be there.

I love all of you.

I will never forget you.

Peace <3
Debbi.
[emo blog post for once, huh? XD]




Yo~!

I haven't been online for a while. I just got to Macau a couple of days ago! Even though it's only been a while, crazy things have been happening. Hmm, well, maybe not crazy, but WEIRD. Freaking weird. Okay, lemme explain...

1. There's a guy who cleans our room everyday (yes, same guy. Btw, I'm now staying at the Venetian ~ it's a casino-cum-hotel. It's kinda cool. And freakin' big.) WHO LOOKS LIKE HAN GENG [from Super Junior]. (okay, maybe not a lot. But he wears a black-framed specs like the Han Geng pic I have in my phone. AND he has the same hairstyle. I swear they have the same kind of eyes too.) HE TALKS LIKE HAN GENG TOO (yesh, unbelieveable china accent ~ And I'm not saying just the accent, but the tone and stuff like that!).

2. There's a guy at the reception whose name is MELLO. (yes, Mello from Death Note. Maybe he's a fan.)

3. There's actually a lot of Japanese people here. They speak so fast and the only words i could probably understand was "shiteru! shiteru!" [which means "I know! I know!"]

I know there's more, but I can't remember. Oh well. People here are really nice though. The Han Geng-like person keeps smiling so much (his smile is also somewhat like him... THIS IS JUST CRAZY.) and he gave us like nine bottles of shampoo... And I can understand most of the stuff here as they all speak Cantonese or Mandarin. :D The food here is good too! :D

This hotel is bloody big - there's not only McDonald's and Starbucks, there's also Haagen Daaz (however you spell it!), Japanese restaurants, Steak houses, Chocolate shops, a food court, lots of shops like Geox, Zara, Lancome, Gucci, Coach, there's even a bank O.o (but I guess a bank is understandable in a casino...) You know, since I can't go through the casino, there's this special path for kids to walk around the place (yesh, it takes up loads more time than it should, which is frustrating.) Ah well.

I hope all of you guys on holiday are having fun as well! Those who are staying at home, think of it this way - you don't have to wake up at five tomorrow to catch a flight T_T yesh, I'm leaving Macau tomorrow - i'm going to Guangzhou, Shantou for five days before heading to Xi 'An then Hong Kong. Going to my relative's place... Wonder if I can communicate with them. I have two cousins there, one 20 and the other 22. The older one is going to get married soon, i think? Aish, nevermind, I don't even know their names T_T

ERH. Okay, I think I better stop now, if not my brother would be complaining about how slow I am at writing blog posts and thus hogging the computer X.X Haha. Okay, i'll update soon! :D

Debbi xo




Argh. WHY.

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?

WHY AM I SO ADDICTED TO YOU?

YES. YOU.

DON'T LOOK ANYWHERE. I MEAN YOU.

DON'T GIVE ME THAT LOOK OKAY.

ARGH. WHY.

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?

*shakes computer*

WHY DON'T YOU HAVE THE SUBS FOR THE ELEVENTH PART OF ITAEWON?!?!?!?!?!

Oh hi. I'm sorry. I forgot I'm actually writing a blog post. Oh well.

I just collected my books this morning! I like our new Literature book. I've already read the first chapter. It's actually quite an interesting read. At least better than VBS [Village By the Sea] -.- It's actually Science Fiction! :D I also looked through my F&N textbook and I felt as if I was going through a Biology lesson instead -.- But, quite interesting, anyway :) OH HISTORY IS THE MOST INTERESTING! We'll be learning about WW1 and 2 and Hitler and Yamashita! Ahhhh, I can't wait :D Looks like next year is going to be a tiring yet fun year! :D

I'm currently learning the lyrics for the chinese version of "Timeless" by Zhang Yilin and Xiah Junsu. I really like it a lot! It also helps in my chinese anyway XD I am also depending on my trip to China next week to help me in understanding the language better~ I used to think learning a new language was a waste of time, but now I find it a necessity! Seriously, your mind does change when it grows older! :) Hopefully, by next year, you'll see me as a girl who's as proficient in Chinese as she is in English! :D

I'm also trying to learn conversational Korean at the same time. My father suggested signing up for Korean classes, but I guess I have to wait till school starts and get my schedule right before signing up for anything. My mom is also for it, as she was recommending me to go for classes after school (there is one just opposite Somerset MRT), but of course that is only if I can sustain this interest in Korean long enough. She doesn't want me to 半途而废。She's right I guess. :P Well, have to wait and see ^^

I'm going for CIP tomorrow~ Sigh. It's gonna be another day of doing roving duties T_T

Before going to China, Vera, Moyashi, Chloe and I are going to the Zoo~ (don't ask me why we picked the Zoo, of all places, hahaha) But I'm not sure whether Mingzhen and Amanda Lee wants to go. Hmm. I bet we're gonna be taking a lot of pictures hahaha. :D

RING DING DONG.

This song is driving me nuts. The tune is still in my head!

Oh, Joey came to my house yesterday :D We watched episode 1 of You're Beautiful (I have finished the whole season, but I wanted to get Joey to watch ahaha.) and she was showing me some videos of 2PM and DBSK. Haha. Gosh, Daesung from Big Bang is actually quite adorable (in terms of character, not the other meaning) and he's freakin' funny. DUMB AND DUMBER. HAHA. Yunho is quite sweet to his fans~ and [Xiah] Junsu only has an IQ of 100?! (only because he didn't answer all of the maths-related questions, saying he 'wasn't good at it'.)

I realised "Sexyback" by Justin Timberlake is VERY popular in Korea -.-

(Okay, fine, it was freakin' popular here too. hehe.)

I have heard Leeteuk and Eunhyuk sing it (HAHA).
I have also heard Geun Suk sing it. (His pronunciation was good!)
Xiah and U-Know were dancing to it in Family Outing.

I was like "WHAT?! WHY IS THIS SONG EVERYWHERE?!"

Ah well.

I don't feel like typing anymore :P Will update soon i guess ;D

See you~
Debbi xo